There were many iterations of this piece that flowed through my mind in the past week.

Clarissa Maskilone created a 10 day self-check-in art challenge which I wanted to join but could only do so mentally. Within myself there was a bit of a block. It wasn’t just limited to creating art, it was also spread across sharing content on this page and my ability to be productive as well. 



There was something within I needed to release. It was a painful ache in the centre of my being, and it had a lot to do with an aspect of my not so distant past.

There were shadows to be faced and forgiveness to be given as well as asked for. It started off with me semi-forcing myself to sit down when I had a moment of quiet and begin to journal. Some of the words and feelings felt repetitive as they flowed out, but I allowed it to happen without judgement. There was an abundance of tears as I sat with the pain and truth. My shadows.

It was then followed by a phone call.

I wrote everything that needed to be said in a note on my phone, not fully trusting that I would be able to remember each word when my throat felt tight with emotion. They were important, and so I needed to do them the justice of a proper and full delivery. 



I was grateful for the opportunity to speak and address the shadows again. Some people never get the chance to do this. With the call came a pinch of clarity, a sprinkle of pain, a dash of sadness and a heaps of teary gratitude within. It was a flurry of emotions. Confusing but also necessary. 



Thank you. I’m sorry. I love you. Goodbye. 



And in the final step today, I partook in a meditative session of releasing with Kamala Velautham. Eyes closed, I saw the shadows and at the end of the session I saw them dissipate into smoke and into light. There were many takeaways, but the sentence that came to at the end of it all with a certain clarity was

“There are no more shadows, only light.”

That is what inspired this piece of art.  I feel incredibly vulnerable sharing this, but if I want serendipity at midnight to grow into what it’s meant to be then I need to have the courage to dive deep and also breach (as whales do) to share what’s within. So I may have missed out on the 10 days, but this is my check-in for today.

Everything felt like it was supposed to happen the way it played out, almost as if it was being guided by the Divine. Now, this doesn’t mean that I am completely free of things that need to be processed and transmuted. It just feels like a small breakthrough in the process of it all, which I am grateful for.

Shadows dissipate through acceptance, forgiveness, and love. They bring us growth and create a space for light to shine. I let them go with love for at the end of the day, they are a part of me. Everything and everyone we encounter are but reflections of what we carry within ourselves. No one is perfect. We are multi-layered creatures. All of us learning and doing our best to understand, accept and integrate our shadows and light.

If you would like to read a little bit more about the details of the piece, I invite you to go to my instagram page. 🙂

Do give Clarissa’s page a visit as well, for art pieces and words that will resonate within the fabric of your being and give you a much needed pick me up or a visual hug.

As usual, thank you for reading.

Sending love and some stardust your way,
Maya